Bless the Lord, my soul.

I really don’t like some people these days.
Especially the way they judge, and how their thought processes work.

Insensitive.
careless.
Selfish. 
Judgmental.  

it disgusts me so much.
Constantly unsatisfied and disappointed these days..
I want someone to end it for me.

Prove me wrong that there is someone different. 

I am so let-down, disappointed, and unsatisfied by many people these days
for their shallowness, and lack of human touch and care. 

Maybe I am being sensitive, but
it annoys me so much when I discover from time to time
how superficial some people that you know are. 

Maybe It’s too much to ask for.
Maybe asking for a simple show of care for our friendship
is too much for some people.

I don’t know, maybe even a quick text once in a while? 

Maybe they are not meant to be your real friends.
Maybe they are useless in your life.

But I’m very thankful that I still have a few, but genuinely humane friends.
Maybe that’s all you need.  

But one thing is for sure… for now.
I have no desire to show care for those who do not truly care about me.

who look good, but have retarded personalities.

Sad truth.

I don’t usually use the R-word, but I felt the need to this time,
because it is really a handicap for them.

One of the best scenes in the movie…
I wanna watch it again so bad! 

the power to overcome.
It is OUR job then, to choose to overcome,
because God does not force us to choose.

But trust the Lord.

and yet, they are all still alive in me. Every single one of them.
But none of them belongs to me.
And it kills me to know that the only thing I can do now is stare.
Bitterly smiling as I reminisce…

Maybe I once could have had them.

HAHAHAHA

(via deanlocked)

that as I get older, my relationship with my parents is getting better and better.
I think it’s one of the signs of maturity (hopefully lol). 
I don’t say this often, but

I truly love them. I should tell them in person tomorrow morning. 

carried by many Christians:

You don’t have to do good deeds or attempt to spiritually cleanse yourself and feel somewhat like a “good” person before reaching out to God, because your righteousness is nothing but a filthy rag (Isaiah 64:6). It is Christ who puts on His clothes of Righteousness on you, that you may be acceptable in God’s sight. 

So the question is, 

why are we trying to cleanse ourselves on our own before God, when whatever we do as human beings will equal to nothing but a filthy rag? 

So the bottom line is,

We as sinners will never be righteous on our own. HOWEVER, it does not end there. By the help of Christ we may be whole. 

Go to Him just as you are, because He can only truly cleanse you. Not yourself. 

At the lowest point and filthiest state of your life, God says to you, “Just take My hand, I will lead the way.”

God isn’t waiting for you to be CLEAN before Him.
God is waiting for you to ask Him for HELP.

So the real question is,

are you willing to let Christ lead, or still refusing?

to still have your presence in my heart after everything we went through.
I guess I deserve it, but at the same time that’s not true.

I wonder how long it will take before we can take down this wall between us.
But looking at you looking at me makes me wonder if,

to you I weigh any more than a dust.

Technically today in a few hours. I like my new schedule. I spent the whole day trying to make a perfect one. Btw today was pretty straight. Moved back in Athens, witnessed Tebow winning, ate good food, and good reunion with the roommate n some friends. Anyways, tomorrow is gonna be a long day, and sleeping this late isnt helping… Good night.

1. Get all A’s.
2. More involved in church. 
3. Take care of my body. AKA GET RIPPED.
4. Get a job (seriously…)
5. Grow out my hair. (pretty lame resolution lol. but for the change)
6. Make a video every week!
7. Wake up by 8am (omg im dead…)

And more PERSONALLY:
1. Start the day with God, end the day with God. AKA Devotions.
2. Focus more on my character than career.
3. Lead by example. 
4. Walk the walk, not only talk the talk, as a Christian. 

I think these are pretty realistic and reachable goals. I don’t want to disappoint myself again. And I said this last year too, but before doing any of the resolutions above, my biggest goal as always is…

to know that without God in my life, whatever I am doing is meaningless.