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5 Things I Want To Focus On. (2014)

1. Be Proactive
I cannot just sit here waiting for someone to spoon-feed me the opportunities. I gotta give myself more chances. Get out there. Do something. Work for it. Let opportunities see ME. 

2. Love for People
We all have our differences. Who am I to say I’m right and you’re wrong? He’s wrong? She’s wrong? I may prove my points, but I can never win your heart. My focus, then, is rather to love you for who you are. Listen and understand you, because you are just as important and precious as me, no matter who you are or WHAT you are. Be real with me. We’re all humans.

3. Be Reliable
If you know me, you would know that I have some issues with punctuality. I MUST become someone who is diligent, on time, active, positive, responsible. Someone who people can count on. 

4. Self-Improving
I am realizing more that what matters the most is what I know personally. WHO I am personally. School itself can only teach you so much. So I must keep bettering myself and maximize my talent outside of school while I still have the time and the energy, because my youth ain’t coming back. It’s funny how I still look forward and waiting for the future to come, yet I’m almost 22 already. Back when I was 16, I thought was gonna be someone amazing by this age. I don’t want to think the same way when I’m 30.

5. Appreciate
Sometimes I get too caught up wanting and wishing, that I forget about the things I already have. I need to be more thankful each day to keep myself humble and grounded. I don’t have time to feel sorry for myself. 

So here’s to a New Year: 2014. Let’s get it. 

P.S I really need to make more damn videos.

Serve

Sacrifice.

Listen.

Empathize.

Appreciate.

Affirm.

Crucial necessities in order to Love.

What do you do

when you already see the limit.
when you already see the future.

when you already see the ending.

I don’t even know my own heart sometimes… 

what do I want?

It’s Tough

becoming a man.

All the bad, old habits as a boy spring back up once in a while:
being a baby who must get what he wants, and expecting others to know how I feel all the time. But I want to get rid of them.

You make me want to change.
You make me want to try.

You make me want to become a man.

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All That Matters.

Bieber swaggggggggggggg. The song is great, not gonna front! 

Next time we talk,

I don’t want to just talk, I want to trust
Next time I stand tall I want to be standing for you
And next time I spend I want it all to be with you

Drake - “Own it”

Patience

Just how much do I need?
I can endure so much… But I guess nothing worthy comes easy.

설렌다… :)

Calculating

"To love at all is to be vulnerable." — C.S. Lewis

Yet I’m constantly finding myself calculating: whether it’s worth sacrificing a part of me for. Whether it’s worth being out of my comfort zone and my circle for. Whether it’s worth taking chance. Whether it’s worth laying out my pride for. 

Whether it’s worth being vulnerable for.

Whether it’s worth… to love.

And whether it’s the right time or not.

But then, when is ever a perfect time in life?
I guess I’m scared of the brokenness, too, after all.

Waiting

and waiting… Is it going to be worth it?
Do I even know what I’m waiting for?

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Slow Dancing in a Burning Room. Totally my type of tempo…

"I don’t know."

What do you want?
What do I want?
Where are you?
Where am I?
What do you see?
What do I see?
Do you see me?
Do I see you?
Do you see you?
Do I see me?

Do you see us?
Do I see us?

Do we… see us?

Still here

Ready to listen.
Ready to talk.
Ready to understand.
Ready to forgive.

Or maybe I’m just still naive. I wish I was cold blooded like you.

Before you go

crying to God and put up all those lovely bible verses, go kneel to those you’ve wronged against. Learn how to be a human being with some decency and manners before anything. Until then…

you’re nothing.